Ramadhan has come to an end :(

Alhamdulilah, i am grateful that dis year i've completed the third Rukun islam which is fast during the holy month of Ramadhan.. and Insya allah, my fasting this year is FULL.. hehe i'm so excited hehe jarang bh kn full puasa ani.. esp if u are a female.. that's one good thing and i still have to worry about my menstrual cycle.. hmm m i so stressed out?? weight change?? perhaps.. hmm wateva lah.. will c how it goes and let it be.. Ramadhan dis year has great meanings for me.. why?? lets just keep it personal.. i just couldnt believe how tym runs fast.. it just lyk baru dua tiga hari lapas baru puasa ani abiz tia.. well, andang jua kn.. the good deals always selalu capat, nda terasa.. one minute, its gone.. let us just hope that we will be able to celebrate ramadhan again in the next years.. amin..

as for now, let us talk about Syawal.. :)

Before i begin.. i would like to wish all muslim muslimat, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.. Maaf Zahir Batin.. Segala dosa dan silap salah harap di maafkan.. Halalkan apa yg termakan dan terminum.. and Hope you guys enjoy Eid wherever you are.. i believe this tym of the year is a best way for us to seek forgiveness from ppl.. banar plg u have to minta maaf mun buat dosa, bh somethimes, to seek forgiveness is one of the hardest thing for ppl to do.. and why is dat?? hmm nda plg ku tahu jua.. i guess it depends on courage and also sincerity one has towards himself and others.. to say 'sorry' sounds easy but to let it out sincerely from your mouth, it maybe awkward and hard to some ppl.. so in this opportunity, i sincerely would love to express my gratitude apology to all the wrongdoings that i did in the past esp those sindiran2, umpat umpatan dan yg sewaktu dgnnya..

as most muslims all over the world, we will be celebrating eid tmrw insya allah.. well, perhaps tonight with the recital of takbir.. i have mixed feelings as usual.. raya is something good as it is a celebration for our glory in resisting ourselves from the temptations of duniawi, and thus, it is a must for every1 to enjoy it seadanya.. on the otherhand, i believe the timing is not really pleasing.. hehe i would love to have eid back home.. i miss eid in my hometown :( as i have mayb mentioned before, this is my third time celebrating eid here.. sad as it sounds, but i just have no choice.. i have to fulfill my obligations as well.. obligations to study and pass my exams hopefully with flying colours.. seee eerrr.. i have no expectations for raya dis year.. just flow with it.. so far, my first raya seems to be exciting coz i have 3 invitations for an open house!! yea.. but! i noe there's always a BUT! hahaha.. i have my summative exam on Neuro at 1pm tmrw at RBWH.. heehee still considering of whether i should be wearing my baju kurung for exam.. hehe to be honest, i am quite embarassed to wear that gear around.. naik bus, k city, then naik bus, k spital.. i believe through my journey back and forth to RBH from home, i will meet at least 500 ppl.. will tell u guys how ppl reacted?? i am pretty sure eyes will keep on staring at me.. but yeah, raya x ah... cmana th jua!! nda jua kn raya pakai baju seluar.. dat is even more sad!!

dis week, i have no FQs hehe yezzaaa.. thank god my pbl mates orgnya understanding and cool.. and they have given me a week off :) siuk eh hehe finally, aku dpat goyanng kaki skajap.. hehe dis week's case is about Anxiety.. hmm i'm not actually into psychological stuff plg iatah nda ku excited kn baca dis week's case.. will do afta pbl x.. insya allah.. once i heard all the presentations, baruth ku mmbaca.. i dun have the mood to study today actually, mayb coz its raya tmrw and somthing to make me Lazy hehe.. cuti raya bh eh.. hehe off for 3 days :p

i just hope i'll be strong!! cant help it dear, and i'm so sure homesickness and tears will be accompanying me these days.. i just dunno why shud i cry.. but its a involuntary, automatic response when it comes to raya.. apanya org.. automatic response haha bila jua?! suka hati ku saja.. this raya lagi makin sunyi.. haha last year, tyah sini jua.. dis year, eerr nda ia.. ia cbuk d brn beraya.. oo how i envy her!!! okie dats all for now, selamat hari raya aidilfitri :)