Salam all.. Aishhh, I have not been stable emotionally at the moment.. I just have lots of things going through my mind.. I just wish I can spit it out to someone, but you know, there's just some things that you prefer to keep it for yourself..
My exam day has been confirmed and I am lucky to have the exam on Wednesday, 17th March.. Lucky or not?? I am not sure.. but one good thing, I can get longer holidays and get it done asap.. But how ready am I for the exams?? Only god knows the answer and how I feel deep inside.. It's gonna be something new.. I've done a couple of clinical exams throughout my first 2 years of med, but this is gonna be a bit tricky coz the patients definitely has diagnoses that I should be able to find out and tell.. If only there's just 20 medical problems in this world, then I am surely gonna be fine.. But there's about >100 in real world, and my knowledge may be limited.. Wish me luck!! Pray for me that I'll get those common cases that I am an expert at.. orites.. Amin
One more week left.. I've seen many patients and I seriously have no record on my patients.. I was planning to write in a diary for collections, but I was too tired and lazy to make it possible.. Two of my favourite patients died yesterday.. It was sad but we kinda expect that to happen soon.. They have just reached their end of life pathway.. Talking about death, I have seen quite a lot, and I think it is more acceptable to see someone who's suffering to die asap.. I can imagine them suffering the pain and seriously, there's no cure left but just palliative care to make them as comfortable as possible.. To let someone you love go is really the hardest thing I've experienced and it would take ages to accept the fact that we are no longer living in the same world.. But I guess if I am to be a doctor, I shouldnt be too emotionally attached to my patients, or else I'll be in big trouble.. Depression!! I'll just have to face that god loves them more and we've done everything that we possibly can to help the patients.. :)
I've been feeling restless these days.. I am always sleepy at 10pm and I couldnt stay awake later than 11pm.. The daily worklife/ schoollife is draining my energy level :P I am just getting old ehehe.. cant believe I would turn 25 this year.. Grown up and more mature!! lols but still single (but atm is not available to have any relationship)
Oh yes.. last night, we went to Ahmet's restaurant for dinner.. I was really craving for steak and we ended up going there for Turkish's meal.. The food was a bit pricey there.. but I think it's worth it.. I had a mixed platter consisteing of chicken skewer, beef skewer, lamb skewer + lamb cutlets with rice and salad for $33
Orites, I am already sleepy... I guess the caffeine from the "teh tarik" is not helping me to stay awake longer.. Good nyt peeps,
Happy Friday tmrw..
I have ward rounds tmrw and maybe if I am keen enough, would do one long case + short cases for exam practice.. Insya Allah..
xoxo,
Hasyimah Tamin
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