Think its easy??!!

Heya.. Its the 2nd day of my vacation.. altho theoretically its the 4th day of non uni days.. Oh yes, I've enjoyed the procrastination that has been going on for the past few days.. It just feels good to not do any work and just kill time.. I think I've gained some weight for the holidays!! Seriously, nothing's better that to make your tummy bloated during the free sessions.. Hehe best nyer altho' I hate the idea of putting on weight instead of losing some weight!! Oh well, will try to burn those fats one day.. One day of jogging should make it up.. I guess provided I starved myself for few days.. Haaha i noe that's unhealthy BUT pls dun worry, I have never done anything similar to that..coz I simply cant resist FOOD..

To date, I've not done any study!! Gosh, yup i'm worried and I do feel some guilt.. esp everytime I imagined my fellow pbl mates geeking with their books and notes!! I shud be doing the same thing, right??!! But hmmm wats the point of holidays if you just cant have a break to chill??!! So, I shall forgive myself for slacking coz I love my life and I believe life shud be enjoyed =)

I love to think.. think and think until I get bored!! coz I just dunno where else to go.. haha.. Mayb its becoz I'm growing older.. so my maturity levels are getting HIGH and I keep on pondering around of wat's best in life.. Mayb its also becoz i simply have no experience in these areas which makes me want to know more.. Tonight, I want to talk about LIFE.. My life.. your life is NOT the same but we do have something in common eventually.. which is just TEMPORARY.. LIFE oh life.. give me life!! Life is so misterious.. Sometimes, you just dun have the clue when it happened.. For example, in a car accident, it's not planned!! I am a daydreamer more than a night dreamer.. I have my own fantasies and imaginations.. but hmm I wonder if will be the same in reality.. I just wished it will works the same way but hmm I just cant tell..

people may call me 'beuri' which is some sorts of freaking out.. But hey, its normal sometimes to be worried about life.. Where is my life heading to in the future??!! I wished I know the answer but unfortunately, I just have NO idea.. I do have hopes and images of what I wanna my life to be in the next few years, but to guarantee it will happen.. I simply CANT!! "Kita hanya mampu merancang, tuhan yang menentukan!!" I am sure most people have heard that famous quote.. and I do believe in it.. Some things are not as we expected, it just changed.. kn? kn? I'm sure there are times you were in a situation that is Not favoring for you right just becoz its not beyond your expectations.. I've been in these situations in many times.. So seriously, I just cant have high hopes in my life coz I noe there are some things that will flow differently from what I've planned.. So does that mean that our future changes all the time?? or It has been fated?? I dun know the answer actually, but for what I honestly believed, "for everything that happened, it happened for a reason.." I love that quote.. It's inspiring and motivating, and it has never let me down.. For anything bad that has occurred, that quote simply tells me that there's always 'hikmah' hidden and its up to us to think positively what it might be.. and we do still can hope.. DOA (prayer) is also another important key factor in life.. Allah will grant all the prayer of his people if our 'nawaitu' is for a good reason.. Insya allah

Life is full of surprises.. kn? kn? Arggghh.. Its life.. whether u want it or not, Its your life and You are part of a game and your job is to make sure you win the game.. Life is manipulation, complex, a cycle??? No one can perfectly define LIFE.. LIFE is also the same as LOVE.. 4 letter word jua but hey, whooosh.. Undefined.. As a Muslim, I believe that life is just a temporary station for us to collect as much as tokens for the permanent life ahead of us.. Its just like we are building a bridge to make our own pathways to heaven.. Nda ja?? That's what i believe plg.. and I noe I've got to acquire more tokens (pahalas) while I still can.. I noe this seems scarry and I will stop talking about this for the time being :)But have you ever wonder hows life gonna be after here?? Hows life gonna be when you're all alone in the grave leaving behind your family?? Hows heaven.. Hows hell??? Allahu Akhbar

My life has been going on for the past 23 years.. Hmmm.. I dont have so much experience actually altho' 23 years seemed to be long!! But no.. I do feel like I'm a novice in all matter.. There's just many things in life that I've got to do before I go.. My life so far has been a blessing and I am happy with my life altho' I can say I have such a bad time when I was small.. that is when my beloved dad past away when I was 10.. By that time, I already know.. life can be painful!! But, that didnt keep me down with life.. besides, I hold on to it and realized that I've got to make use of life wisely and ensure that I am satisfied with my life always as I will be having the same fate one day.. I do regretted for not spending enough time with HIM when he's still alive and Now, I just have to make sure that I've devoted my life to all the people that I love.. and pray for his happiness and safety to god.. I learned to appreciate and love people more.. I am also a future-determined person.. so basically, I tried hard to make sure I achieved all my dreams and tried my best to flow with life.. As there's simply no easy LIFE..

I have not accomplished anything BIG and amazing so far!! I'm not talking about designer bags, or jeweleries or wateva you can buy with money.. Oh yea, apart from graduating my degree.. Other than that, I am empty handed.. Well, yup at least, I still have my beloved family and friends that continue to give me the inspiration of life.. They have fulfilled my life and kept me busy everyday just to let me know I'm not alone in this world.. I do have sympathy for those who lacks this love and support.. I just cant live without love.. My UNI life has been great and as always there's UP n DOWN!! But I'm still hanging on and hopefully, Allah will let me finished my studies with flying colours and one day, I'll be Doctor Hasyimah.. and my LOVE life is not blooming at the moment.. HMMM.. dun ask me why, I also wonder why?? Mayb the time has not yet come for me to find love as my battle with work is kinda demanding and to have two important chores at the same time seem to FUN and cool but NOT the right timing for me now.. So, yea.. I'm cool.. :)

LIFE, u cant just buy with money.. but in order to have life, you've got to have money.. Or love is just enough?? I am actually impressed with some ppl who altho' lack in all sorts such as money and education, but they still have great life simply becoz they have their love ones.. And on the other hand, I pity some people who have all the wealth surrounding them but they lack LOVE!! So yes, LIFE needs to have a balance of LOVE and also wealth.. I dun mean to say u need to be wealthy, I just mean that you need some money to buy the necessity of life such as food.. coz, without food jua.. lapar tu eh.. then LIFE expectancy maybe affected but errmm if too much food pun jua, byk penyakit!! Balance is the right answer.. ever wonder if life is fair for all?? even reason why your life is this way and not the opposite?? and I definitely always wonder where's my life heading to in the future and Whats my life gonna be like in the next 3o years...

Enough deep thoughts as for now.. To be continued I hope in other posts..
Hasyimah~~