I'm broke but I'm happy!!

For those yg rajin melawat my blog site, shud have realised that my blog was prohibited from unauthorised access for the past week.. hehe.. i' sorry for the inconvenience caused haha.. hmm andang jua aku ani beulah.. haha secretive and moody haha i guess are the two main negative sides of me.. well, cant help it.. I was born with it but hey, i am trying my best day by day to be more positive but hmm payah juakn, ulah sorg2 ani lain2.. it flows dh inside ur blood and blends with ur genetic material in the body haha.. lols..

Dis week has been challenging enough for me.. All things actually and most importantly, money wise.. huh, i'm starting to get broke.. haha but dat doesnt mean i dun have any backup savings.. Haha aku ani karit plg ckit in terms that i dun wanna touch my savings until i'm seriously broke.. but to have less than 100, hmm its better for me to take out more cash from my savings as for my own sake.. hehe.. JUst hope there wont be any delays in our next allowance.. hehe.. I was broke mainly becoz of three main reasons, the main one is all about my rent this month which is heck killing me.. $925 itself just for the rent.. n had to pay extra money for the bills such as internet n electricity for $55, washing mac lagi, telefon, mobile, transport!! which reminds me last week itself, i've been spending 7.50 for bus itself.. and dis week hmm $4.50 huh payah jua eh... mun d brn kn sanang, bill kana byrkn, makan mama belanja, rumah nda sewa.. freee all freee.. the second reason was dat i've spent abou $140 for the trip to Noosa.. hehe but dat wasnt really bad and i tink its worth money.. we had the experience and fun during dat tym hehe jadith kn kuar negeri sama2 nda sampai jadith tinggal rh backpackers saja th haha ksian bunyinya.. lols and the third reason really pissed me off!! I had to pay for my cancellation fess.. damn.. WTF!! this tym i had to swear man coz i was robbed my this stupid FF thing!! I had spent lots of money for FF but in the end, i dun tink its worth money so that is why i decided to cancel my contract.. but to cancel it, i have to pay.. baik plg besedakah arah org miskin tu.. oh my watever, at least now, i'm happy coz i'm no longer bonded to FF and yea, one prob solved!! and i tink its worth long term even i have to spend some money on the club.. and as for now, i just hope i learnt from my mistake and really think twice before making a decision.. the rest of my allowance was spent on food n groceries.. hehe makanan mahal x ah, mun nda makan krg tais liur hehe mau nda mau balith saja.. pffffffff... well, its a way to be independent n this is lyf, with ups and downs..

Fasting has been good lately.. Alhamdulilah, I am happy and satisfied with my fasting days.. hehe nda pernah complen lapar, nda pening lalat, nda gastic.. all good and alhamdulilah, rezeki pun bagus, nda jua shortage of food.. so glad i'm more mature this year and able to appreciate the opportunity god has given me to use wisely.. Everyday, I want to be some1 better, and also make use of the chance to be closer to Illahi.. I am still trying and hopefully, god will answer my prayers.. amin2.. to be someone better is really challenging coz it all depends on our Niat and sincerity.. I need to be strong to face every single tests and learn from every mistakes that i did!! and as far as my experience goes, for every difficulties in lyf, god will show u the solutions..

Things has been pretty tricky and annoying at times.. HUh, i just dunno.. mayb i'm having my PMS so dats why i'm quite grumpy and also sensitive some times.. cant help it when all the hormonal changes took place and change my mood.. Myb coz it raya soon and the exam is coming so really all the feelings are mixed up.. If only i have a magic lamp or wateva, my main request is Balik Brunei!! I miss home.. esp during this festival season.. OMG, it has been 3 times dh away from home and It really is sad and boring to have the celebration here..