Aish aish.. wat's wrong with me lately?? its really annoying coz i can easily change moods these days.. i dunno wats pulling me off but yeah, i have to admit.. i'm moody!! and the reasons behind it.. i'm just not sure.. mayb hormonal factors i guess PMS x ah :p but i tell u.. i myself get annoyed when my mood suddenly changed.. one minute i can be talkative and happy and the next minute i'll just shut up and i noe my riak muka berubah jdi murung!! its normal.. most ppl who noe me better wud have noticed it.. esp when it comes w/ fake smiles.. i'm sorry but cant help it =P
i have mixed feelings lately.. missing sum1/ ppl, missing home, thinking of dat.. thinking of this.. lecture.. pbls.. cc.. studies.. lyf.. money.. huhu.. but those stuffs are just minors which comes and goes freely.. i just cant be bothered w them.. but there's just one thing which bothers me that i just cudnt let it go.. i just dunnoe how on earth i'm gonna let go the feelings that keep on proliferating in my mind and forget it all lyk nothing had happened.. oh no.. d more i tried, d more difficult it takes to do it.. *sigh* oh well, lets be positive.. "semua pasti ada hikmahnya.." kn kn..
haha but ntah ah.. biarlah rahsia :) i luv to keep feelings to myself.. not becoz i dun trust ppl easily but sumtyms it takes more courage to make ppl believe in you and understand ur situation.. which i assumed only certain ppl have those specialities.. hey, ur not in the same shoes so how wud u know.. kn kn.. and sumtyms, i dunno it mayb feelings.. just feelings.. wen u let it out, u sumhow have negative feelings surrounding u.. believe me or not, i've been thro' this n i cud sense if someone u tell trust u or not.. lyf is so complicated!! i miss my talking session w/ mum n sis.. it wud be great if i we had our talk while lepaking at the coffee shop back home.. Fleurdelys wah.. or at home, just b4 nap tym.. i miss home.. tsk tsk.. wait till tmrw, coz tmrw is a new day =) lyf's owez getting better lately it's just mood dat needs some kick-ins.. i guess my mood reflects the weather in Brissy.. kajap panas.. kajap hujan.. just lyk today :S
Holiday
14 years ago
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guess what, i must got it from u.. i am so moody today, i met my supervisor this afternoon kira replacement session for next week sal me on hol arah our cuz. aftr dat i went to this old lib and borrowed the wrong book haha how bad is dat? then went to IC (the new lib where i took u once), there i met c M and was not excited as usual. when i wanted to go to the silent area, he stood near the entrance and asked me, how are you? i wanted to tell him i feel realy moody and not fine but scared that i wud talk and talk and share my thhoughts. which is not good.. and i replied, fine.., fine.., for twice ntah eh.. and that was it, mayb he was looking fwd for the usual conversation.. didnt stay for long, then i went to the nearby park hoping the kids were there but nada.. breng so i just played swing and went home cooked rubbish for dinner.. malasss and bad mood lah til now. urghhh i must feel worried after my meeting with supervisor or homesick. i dunno.. hugsss
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